A New Year, a New Decade, another Birthday & a Brand New ME!
In the world we live in, much is said about when we are born and when we die. Our birthday is celebrated every year to commemorate the very instant we came into the world. And a funeral is held to mark the day we leave it. But lately I've been wondering... what can be said of all the moments in between our birth and our death? The moments when we are reborn...
In life, we grow up and we encounter the nuanced complexities of trying to figure out who to be, how to act, or how to be happy. Like invisible smoke in the room, we wonder what kind of anxiety pushes you forward, and what kind ruins your ability to find joy in your life. We constantly question our choices, our surroundings, and we beat ourselves up for our mistakes. All the while, we long for those rare, enchanting moments when things just fall into place. Above all else, we really, really want our lives to be filled with love. I've decided that in this life, I want to be defined by the things I love- not the things I hate, the things I'm afraid of, or the things that haunt me in the middle of the night.
And so, for the last few years, I've woken up every day not wanting, but needing to find a purposeful mission for myself. I listened to my intuition that it was a good thing to follow this gut feeling. I needed to change the way I lived and told my personal story. So now I've decided that this is going to be a story about coming into your own, and as a result... coming alive.
I frequently and drastically changed my opinions on love, friends, confidence and trust. While I mostly questioned why I would ever try to shoot for a career I had such a small chance of ever attaining, I thought. But nowadays, I know better to believe that anything actually IS possible! I only wish, I had figured my shit out sooner, but I guess it's all about the divine timing, right?
And jumping ahead and building a business is no small matter. But it doesn't have to be a huge one, either. I've studied years and years of business administration in my home country as well as abroad. So I knew from the get-go I needed to be willing to take a risk, a chance on myself, really. But the actual decision making was made primarily in an unconscious way. Or knowing, that in the end, I wanted to be in charge of my days, my creative outlets and work output. Knowing the worst, but hoping for the best tempered my emotions when I first started. Once I realized what life looked like if I failed, I was ready to succeed. There are others who might be risking a mortgage and their health insurance, so I suspect the transition may be slower in order to safeguard one’s family and assets, but I was willing to invest in my own physical & mental health with all this!
Planning and executing a successful brand, or events concept, is less about where you’re starting from and more about where you’re going. You can achieve your goals more easily with a strong vision and commitment than with a strong name and following. If you can learn to recognize your own authenticity and the value of your unique voice and story, then you have the beginning of a brand new story. I had been dreaming for years about bringing people to South Africa, especially Cape Town, a city I love so much, to share the eye-opening experiences that were part of my personal growth process. I realized I could weave my skills together with other fabulous women to support women in their journey toward self-discovery and love. I hope to remember that fear is just fear. I hope to let go of the doubt and get intentional. With firm intention, the commitment will follow, and I’ll hope to be able to offer life-changing events and most of all, I'll hope to find my tribe <3
I hope you know that you've given me the courage to change and take these chances. I hope you know that who you are is who you choose to be, and that whispers behind your back don't define you. Those things may be struggles, but they're not your, nor my identity. May your struggles become inaudible background noise behind the loud, clear voices of those who love and appreciate you. Turn those voices up in the mix in your head. May you take notice of the things in your life that are nice and make you feel safe and maybe even find wonderment in them. May you write down your feelings and reflect on them years later, only to learn that all the trials and the tribulations you thought might 'kill you'... didn't. I hope that someday you forget the pain ever existed. You are the only person who gets to decide what you will be remembered for.
From the girl who said she would never do yoga or understand 'hippies' or try CBD oil (it is legal in South Africa for the time being), boy was she wrong about HERSELF! And that's OK! :)
xoxo,
Kiti
